let the sunshine fall

I am officially a Monroe Community College Alum. Okay, so some people wouldn't be so thrilled about that - but I am, to say the least.  It's been a long, rough ride and I'm excited to go to Keuka in the fall.  The bad thing about community colleges is that you leave the great friends you have made back where you met them.  However, the good thing is that you have another chance to be yourself and to start fresh. When you go right from HS to a 4 year school - you don't have that chance.  You get a reputation and it sticks with you until you graduate.  I'm excited to start again and meet new people.  For sure, I will miss everyone from Rochester, but it's those who show me that they care who will stay close with me for always. 

So far, summer has been swell.  It sucks that I don't have a job yet and I'm thinking I wont have one this summer. If one comes around, it comes around. I've been out at camp quite a bit and have already had some great days of laying in the sun and drinking by the campfire.  It's refreshing waking up and being lazy all day - it gives you time to think.  Okay, okay it makes me look like a bum - but it's summer!  All year long I have classes and work and drama.  Now, it's me time and I think I deserve that. 

Again, I'm slowly beginning to write.  I've had an awful case of writers block since last summer and it is horrible.  I used to write all day and night and now I'm lucky to get a couple paragraphs in a day. I like the story line, but don't I say that about every one? We will see how far it takes me. Hopefully, I have a winner. 

catch up entry.

So it's summer - somewhat officially. Here are a few things worth discussing:

1) This third year @ MCC was a learning experience.  It taught me that I need to stand up for myself, that life and death is unfair and unexpected, that money will always be limited and that I'm growing up.  It's been the roughest year of my life and I am so thankful that I will be living on the lake this summer.  Relaxation is key. 

2) I'm still working on getting a summer job.  I've had two interviews and both jobs would begin in July, if I got them.  I'm not overly thrilled about either of them, which frustrates me.  Maybe it's because they're 30 mins from camp or because they start a month into summer. I don't know. Money is money though and I need what I can get.  

3) Also, I've come to realize that I need to stop looking for love and let it find me.  Of course, we all say this and want it to happen - and usually it wont. Maybe not 'love,' but interest. I'm going to try not to look for anyone this summer and if something comes my way, so be it.  I need to do my own thing and stop relying on someone else to make me happy.