a place where only dreams go.

I think every child wishes to be in a movie, a television show, a music video. When I was younger I would pretend I was in a movie - pretend that a camera was watching my every move and would try to look wonderful at all times. As I grew older, obviously I stopped pretending a camera was always on my heals and began to realize that fame isn't something that everyone gets to live. Still, I sometimes wish that I could just stumble into the mall and accidently run into a producer or director and for them to look at me and say, 'You're it!'

Yeah, right.

Today I spent the day sleeping and watching Across the Universe extra features with my cat. Yes, life is quite exciting. However, as I watched the behind the scenes, that childhood wish came back to me - the idea of being noticed. I watched the actors practice their vocals and act like normal, everyday humans. That whole idea of realism in someone so noticed made me wish that someday I will be able to get on stage and sing or that someday I will get my chance to shine. Whether it is from creating a novel or a screen play or actually going in front of a camera - I just want to be noticed. I'm not looking for fame, I'm looking for respect and recognition. Who doesn't wish for that?

A raison in the sun
is just a grape with a tan.
Something that wishes
to be better than something else.
The taste may be sweeter
but the life is oh so ill
Why try walking in shoes
you know no one can fill?